M not better!

This is my current status in Gmail for today. Know the reason y?
1- my whole body is aching just like an old lady.
2- m kinda tired with a mountain like responsibility that nobody is willing to share or at least give me a sense of concern and comfort.
3- i feel like m lost s.where that i don't know how to find my will to go on, though i know i have to go on and be better.
4- i'd like to enjoy today and go beyond yesterday and look fwd for a better tomorrow, but i admit that m not better at least for today.
5- i cannot explain myself y i have to surrender this unfinished battle. I need a goal congruence within this thousand-piece of mind.
6- simply i just don't know what to say to make thing better...or mayb cuz i always think people should at least notice how i feel and start to offer help...i always think they could put themselves in my shoes and know how i'd feel. But actually, none can understand me. (well, people, none, or whatever does have some exception, cuz there are a few friends of mine who are in the same situation as i am now.)

I have to be better and i always m no matter how my inner self is feeling right now!