Think back or FWD

Don't know what should i write under this title. I just feel like i should write sth.
A few days before i left JP, i don't feel like coming, many things remain unsolved.
Packing Stuffs? Viewing JP? Going Out s.where with s.o or s.o.s? hmmmm....Smile or Laugh or cry? all are hard...

Claiming myself as a KID,,i do want to be a kid. But when i think like adult, i am becoming stupid.
Say what you think. But not all occasions one can do this. For me, most of the time, i say what i think, but all the time that i say sth just to say sth when i really want to say sth...hard to understand...i also don't understand...

As i have said, i just feel like writing under this topic, but what to write or to express is known, but hard to reveal...YNOT........